It’s back to work for The Confident Momma. I’m happy, I’m sad, I’m proud, I’m confident.
[The last six months have been nothing but happiness]
Happy that I had six months with my girl. Six glorious months. And now my hair is starting to grow back or stop falling out. Either way, this momma is happy. Actually, I’m feeling blessed beyond belief. Six months spent watching my baby girl grow, six months spent bonding, getting to know her little (BIG) personality, and loving on her with each waking moment. Happiness as a momma is like none other.
A Pinch (okay it feels like more like a heavy bucket) of Sadness
Sad because hello, I’m leaving her for 10-12 hours at a time. PLUS commuting time. I can’t even do the math because I know it will kickstart that separation anxiety.
But I’m proud because you know what? In the beginning, I thought I would want to be a stay at home mom. During my maternity leave (actually, in the last two months), I realized that I am not meant to be a stay at home mom. Now don’t get me wrong. I know that God has gifted me with the blessing of being a mother. And I know that I am a good mom. I’m a great mom. In addition to being a momma, I’m also a nurse. I’m an educator. I am meant to care for so many other little humans (literally, you know, babies) and aspiring nurses. I’m proud of who I am, who I was, and who I am going to be. One day I hope that Clara can be proud of that, too.
As a parent, I am confident that Clara will be OK when I’m working. My hubs has loved her since day one. And this last month, he has gotten to know her and bond with her – it has been such a joy, mommas. Such. A. Joy. The two people that make my family loving each other and laughing and smiling with each other… Watch out waterworks because phew they get me every time! I love the two of them so incredibly much. Daddy also knows when to ask for help, and he knows who to ask. I am confident that he’ll be okay, too 😉
Maternity leave ending?
If you’re going back to work I hope that you have the time to process what you’re feeling and why – reflecting on my emotions upon going back to work has really helped me find peace. Let me know how you’re feeling! You got this, mommas!